Monday, January 01, 2007

Hello, 2007.....Goodbye, 2006.....

I'm not one for New Year's resolutions. I actually don't remember the last resolution that I made and kept so why even bother with it ya know.

2006 was such a year of change for me. I (involuntarily) changed jobs and took a HUGE paycut in the process. I pulled more than a few rabbits out of my hat and amazed myself with what I was able to accomplish. I cut ties with a lot of people I considered to be my friends and realized that they really weren't friends at all. I took a long hard look at myself and realized that I needed to focus some work on me. I completed over a year of therapy only to realize that I'm not as nuts as I thought I was and, even by his own admission, am rather well grounded in the realities of life. I fell in love. I had my heart...well broken isn't the right word but...well...let's just say I took a few emotional beatings. However, I did learn that I can open myself to being in that very vulnerable position of admitting to someone how you feel. My self esteem, which had been sorely lacking for quite some time, got a big boost.

2007 is going to be a continuation of those changes. I'm pushing myself harder and harder with my workouts and while I may not be seeing the scale move down, I am seeing my waistline get smaller and smaller as I trim and tone (and pack on some muscle). I've always called the time I spend at the gym to be my sacred personal time where no one can get a hold of me and I actually can focus on myself. Going to the new gym and working out with the trainer has set me on a clear path that I am really enjoying. I'm even considering signing up for another round of sessions while I can get in at the current price.

My job is full of challenges and surprises and I plan on meeting them head on and grow in my new position. The best part about the job was that I didn't know if I really wanted to do it when I first got hired. I took the job so I would have a steady paycheck and not have to rely on temping. I knwo it's probably not going ot be the perfect place for me and I may stay as long as three years or so before I move to another job (in the same industry of course) but for now, I'm going to soak up all of the details and information and take it from there.

I'm going to put myself out there more (okay, call that a resolution if you want but it's more of a personal promise) and go after what and who I want. Part of it will require me to actually go out and spend time in the dreaded bar scene but the people aren't exactly coming to me while I sit on the couch watching episodes of Grey's Anatomy that are still on my DVR. Then again, maybe I can find some nice alternatives to the bars and still meet some quality guys.

2007 is nothing but possibilities. The slate has been wiped clean for me and I start anew.

The journey continues....or has it just begun?

1 comment:

ruggerjohnnyd said...

new starts are good