I just got an alert on my iPad about Robin Williams being found dead and it was being investigated as suicide as he died due to asphyxiation. Per news reports, he was suffering from severe depression.
This resonated with me so hard as depression is something that I have dealt with for many years. I say for many years because, in hindsight, that's what it was... Only in the last two years did I realize the feelings I had, the inability to get out of bed, the crying when someone spun a dollar on the Big Wheel (and, don't laugh, I totally bawled when that happened)... all of that was, in reality, depression. Each time I have found a way out of it. Suicide was never an option for me then and is not one now.
Hearing of Robin Williams' suicide hit me hard. It made me realize that I am doing the right thing by seeking help and entering into therapy - first for grief counseling and then for other issues that have been a part of my life for a while. I know that Mr. Williams sought counseling for his demons and sadly, for him, he felt this was his only option to end his suffering. Thankfully, for me, I look at this as an opportunity to move forward. No, I am not in the same position as Mr. Williams and am not comparing myself to him. If anything, I feel like this has strengthened my resolve to continue my overall path to better health - both physical AND mental.
This resonated with me so hard as depression is something that I have dealt with for many years. I say for many years because, in hindsight, that's what it was... Only in the last two years did I realize the feelings I had, the inability to get out of bed, the crying when someone spun a dollar on the Big Wheel (and, don't laugh, I totally bawled when that happened)... all of that was, in reality, depression. Each time I have found a way out of it. Suicide was never an option for me then and is not one now.
Hearing of Robin Williams' suicide hit me hard. It made me realize that I am doing the right thing by seeking help and entering into therapy - first for grief counseling and then for other issues that have been a part of my life for a while. I know that Mr. Williams sought counseling for his demons and sadly, for him, he felt this was his only option to end his suffering. Thankfully, for me, I look at this as an opportunity to move forward. No, I am not in the same position as Mr. Williams and am not comparing myself to him. If anything, I feel like this has strengthened my resolve to continue my overall path to better health - both physical AND mental.
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